Friday, 11 April 2014

End of Semester is Near! (and VERY amateur phone-tography)

*DEEP BREATH*. You just gotta love the weekends, man!!! I am a Saturday Sabbath keeper, and, man I have to tell you that the feeling of NO work related obligations for 24 hours is a live saver.

Over the week I have had three exams and a quiz in the space of three days and I didn't think I would have lasted till Thursday, but i'm alive (thank the LORD), and I have to repeat this whole crazy schedule of sleeping early and waking up early to put in some extra study time.

Despite all these ups and downs (and even more downs), I have managed to stay sane throughout this hectic semester, (3 more weeks woooo) without having a mental breakdown or anything of the sort. To all of those reading who have finals coming up, keep your chin up, study, take breaks, laugh ALOT, of course pray, and you'll be fine!

Now to digress - I've been into photography for a few years now, but I've never gotten the chance to own a fancy schmancy camera, or anything of the sort. Even if I did, I wouldn't have the time or patience to deal with that while being a biology major in university, so ive just stuck with amateur (and quite low quality :/) photographs of normal day to day stuff. I recently got to try out a Samsung ace and, well here are a few shots I took (i'll try to get some better shots when I actually have time like a normal person:



 
I know, they're NOT the best but lol, whatevs, you know?
 
And, there's the typical bathroom selfie:
 
 
So, stay happy peeps! Do what you love, and love what you do!

Sunday, 6 April 2014

Self Discipline, Game of Thrones, and I can't Drive

11:30 pm and here I am, awake, desperately trying to find a link to watch Game of thrones on the slowest internet planet earth has ever seen. Why do I torment myself like this?

The original plan was to go to bed at 10, wake up at 3am, get some studies in, and feel accomplished like a good ole slave to the system. See I have this exam Wednesday, and one on Thursday too, so I need to get crackalackin with the estudies. But nooo, I choose to stay up, write a blog, and think about the better choices I should be making. Ugh.

At least I got some studying done over the weekend, kindof, So I feel less guilty for not sleeping the time I planned to. Man, is this what my life is? Sad really.

In other news, I was invited to go take a drive with my friend D on Saturday afternoon, to go collect something from his uncle. Now this place was about half an hour away from where I live currently. Being the introvert that I am, my brain screamed at me to say no, and stay cozy in bed to surf the internet all evening long, but I had one of these moments, you know, when you just tell yourself "what the hell" and go with the flow. So I went, and the drive on the way was SO calming. The scenery of the grass and trees and meadows. I felt like I was in the country side in Ireland, although I have no idea what that's like. ( if I had a fancy camera i'd have taken some pics).

I forgot what it was like to take a load off and just, be.

This, of course led me to thinking that I AM TWENTY ONE YEARS OLD AND I CANNOT DRIVE TO SAVE MY LIFE (or anyone else's for that matter). WTF is that? My dad drives taxi for a living and I cannot drive a car. wow. Let's pause for a moment here, *slow claps for Sharna everyone!

How awesome would it be to just get up one day and feel like hey, I wanna go to the beach today, and just GO TO THE GODDAMED BEACH?! Omg mental orgasm right now (slight exaggeration but who cares). But HA! I don't think i'll be getting my license anytime soon, because guess what? I'm not in my home country (or can you do that?), I'll be working in said not home country, and after that I might be going to med school half way across the planet, so yeah, fat chance.

I guess we'll put this one on my bucket list? MUST LEARN TO DRIVE.

Sigh, well i'm off to sleep now, 2 hours off schedule, but who's counting, right? Goodnight (to the 2 or 3 people who actually read this) and have a good one!

Monday, 31 March 2014

Decisions, Decisions

We all have these "what am I even doing at school" moments. Yeah, you know what I'm talking about. Well,  I'm having one as we speak. I feel like exams are taking over my existence and creeping into all the aspects of my life, leaving me a social wreck (I have already made it official that I do not have a social life).

I feel like my thoughts are jumbled up, I don't even know where I'm going with this post...

I fee like I owe everything to my parents, especially my father. This man has given all that he can to make SURE I got to go to university, a privilege he never had. This is a debt I feel like I can never pay back. (excuse my emotional ness, this is bringing me to actual tears). He has been working tirelessly as a man even before he married my mother, had my sister, had me, my little sister, and he works tirelessly to this day. He is my inspiration and my hero.

As of late, the topic of "what are you doing after you graduate" have been coming up left, right, and center. Most times I say "i don't know" because, frankly I DO NOT KNOW, and I feel like somewhat of a failure because I don't have my ish together. My country has this scholarship program going on that offers scholarships to Taiwan, yes friggin TAIWAN.

Just so you could see what I'm dealing with:


My initial plans were to go to med school, but I sometimes doubt my abilities as a scholar as to whether i'm in over my head with that dream. I'm not a 4.0 student per se, and i'm not an over achiever as many people I know are. I feel like that's a trait you need to make it through med school (of course I could be wrong), but its a competitive field, of which I don't feel like I fit in.

However, getting a scholarship would make it easier to realize that my dream could actually come to reality, but at some cost. What do I mean? WELLLLL, there's the boyfriend aspect, I might have to NOT see him for 4+ years (I don't know if he's up for long distance and i'm afraid to bring up the topic again because I know he doesn't want to stand in the way of my goals), family too. I wont get to actually see my little sister grow up, be there as a shoulder when she needs it, be with my family, which is the most important thing in this life to me.

But as I said it IS a good opportunity, assuming I even get through of course. My dad called and told me to see if I could get through applying and stuff. He really wants me to get the scholarship. I mean I owe him this much to try. He has sacrificed so much for my sisters and I to have a good life, and to keep us happy.

I have the rest of the year to sort out my emotions on this one, and I'm going to apply for the scholarship early next year if its still available. Sigh, I wish my boyfriend and family could just move with me if I go.
This is all a part of life's big journey I guess. Plus I have a cousin in Taiwan now, and he says its actually cool over there, so I feel comforted by that. So for now, that's the plan for my future.

Lord this post is long. Anywho, thanks for reading if u made it till the end. ♥

Saturday, 29 March 2014

Past Insecurities...

You know how we tend to give people advice but never take it? Yeah I was one of those.

For a few years in high school (we call it secondary school) I used to be quite insecure about myself because I was really skinny and I was a "late bloomer" as one may call it. So much so, that I had a crush on one of my closest friends at the time and NEVER told him a word, but of course my journal knew everything!

Fast forward to my last year in high school, in which I decided to have a boyfriend but I knew I wasn't ready for one at the time. Of course, I still had a bit of body image issues, but by that time the "late blooming" stage was already overcome, as I had a "figure" and some gluteus maximus action going on, if ya know what I mean. But for some reason, my then boyfriend asked me a question about my body that i'm not even comfortable saying on the internet. Needless to say that I laughed it off, but from that time, I was already turned off.

I don't think anyone I knew knew that I was uncomfortable in my own skin because I used to put up a front all the time. I have these brown eyes that capture people's attention all the time, which means they'd pay attention to me, which I sometimes didn't like. But I've learned to accept compliments and not be shy about it. Feeling insecure takes YEARS to get over (trust me, I know), if we ever do at all. I am still not 100% as comfortable as I would like to be, but i'm wayyy past how I used to feel in high school. I think i'm pretty happy with myself actually. I'm in a good place right now.

One of my goals by the end of summer is to have a body that I am completely and utterly satisfied with. I plan on doing stuff like juicing sometimes, working out more, try to be more outdoorsy (I could stay indoors for days), and just improve my overall mental and physical health.

I leave you with this song that has been in my head for DAYS now

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=y6Sxv-sUYtM



Friday, 28 March 2014

First Post?!!!!

To anyone who decides to read this, HI ! ! !

        So, let's begin with formalities. I'm Sharna, from the beautiful Caribbean island St Lucia. As you can tell by my blog title, this blog is not quite specific, but it's gonna be random bits and pieces of my life, and my interests, rants, and reviews, hair, fitness, likes, and dislikes.

A little background on me

        For as long as I can remember, I've always had a keen interest in writing, (well I kept a journal from ages 13 - 17 so clearly) and I just stopped as soon as I began university. Needless to say that my "creative juices" have been in severe hibernation for a while (4 years to be exact, but who's counting?). So here I am, revisiting an old love, and this time sharing it with the internet, assuming anyone ever reads this. But, if you like to, follow me as I take you along my life's journey, and hopefully you'll be inspired as others have inspired me.

Oh and one more thing, here's my face!